I'm Still A Writer
As summer winds down, so does the time I can reasonably remain on a hiatus from writing. I've got my notes, I've got my ideas, I've got plots galore...
...but what I don't have is motivation.
There is a reason for this. There is a reason that I am reluctant to begin writing again and it isn't good. Sadly, there's a good chance that if you're reading this, you've experienced a similar feeling in recent history. Current affairs are overwhelming. Personal happiness is at the lowest in 10 years. To put it bluntly, the world is going to shit and I can't keep pretending I don't suffer anxiety and depression because of it.
|Sorry for swearing. Here's a cute picture I drew as penance.|
Writing, especially sci-fi and fantasy, draws a lot from the world around us and often makes a political statement on current events. I can't think of anything I've written that doesn't in some way critique society and social norms of today.
And there lies my hesitation. As it is, I've walked a tightrope lately between staying informed and maintaining my own mental health. The last thing I want to do is dive deeper into everything that is unjust and incorrect with the world. At the same time, I can't separate my writing from reality. I can't compartmentalize and simply write fluff. I never could. I tried. I ended up writing the Rise of the Discordant series, which, if you've read, you'll know it takes on more social issues that all my other books combined.
I'll muscle through. I have to. I've got a lot of ideas that need to get out of my head and into the computer. I'm still a writer and I want to write to provide an escape for others who are experiencing the same anxiety and issues that I am. But it may take some time. That I have my art helps. That I've grown comfortable enough to share it with you is even more helpful.
In the mean time, I'm going to putter about, sprucing up this site and making it a little easier for folks to find all of my available work (my book page seems to have disappeared into the ether and I haven't even announced my Zazzle shop yet). And I'm going to keep reading. Like I said, sometimes, an escape is necessary.